just wanted to say hello to everyone. it's been awhile since i've been on. peace homies. i'll be blogging soon.

man, valentine's day is coming up and i've always had mixed feelings about it. anyway, for some reason i was cool with it last year, but this year i think i'll be feeling kinda lonely. dammit...

oh fucking well, right? it's just one day, i guess. well, there's nothing that alcohol and a few of my favorite smiles can't do. so cheers punk asses....maybe it won't be so bad after all....

i went to disneyland today for the zillionth time in my life. i hated every second of it. i hate waiting in lines (which is the reason why i go to bars with service) and i hate rides and games and fake happy people. i hate ugly snotty-nosed spoiled kids, i hate the parents that yell at them or ignore them, i hate the haunted mansion with it's fake ghosts and shitty PA system. i hate that there is a designated smoking area, i hate that you can't buy alcohol ANYWHERE, and i hate that everything is over-priced and over-rated. disneyland sucks at 25, unless you got a great marriage/kids, a lot of money, and a hell of a lot of patience. the only reason why i agreed was because my uncle, who i'm staying with, lives 15 minutes away. other than that, there was no way in hell that i would have sat in a car for more than an hour just to get fucked. after walking around aimlessly for hours, trying to figure out what to do next, to my luck they decided to leave. well, we ended up getting stuck there because there was some light parade thingy and they closed off almost every section. so we were forced to watch the wretched light show in a smoke-free and alcohol-free zone, standing in the way back where we couldn't see shit, trapped in the blistering cold. even the kids we were with, my 2 little cousins (age 1 & 3), could've given a shit if they were at what is called the "happiest place on earth" or at home watching fucking reruns of blues clues. my brother, 12, who's scared to death of rides, only wanted to go to "toon town" which was closed when we finally made it there. my sis and i didn't give a shit, i think i even caught my mom starting to question the thought of why she agreed to stay another night in cali.

time to fucking go. you know it was a bad idea to go to disneyland when you get to the car and you got 5 angry kids, 3 freezing parents, and 4 wasted airline tickets you could've used to get outta the state instead of making such a bad, bad decision.

stayed sober this friday. i left guam on friday afternoon and got to hawaii friday morning...wtf? i had one asahi on the plane to take the edge off...that was a waste, being that one beer was 5 effing dollars. now it's 10am saturday morning for me as well as it is 6am for me on guam. so waking up sober doesn't feel as good as i thought it would.

oh well. we leave tonight for LA and i'm pretty stoked for the cold weather. time is going by so slowly. oh yeah, we got first class on the way to nagoya from guam and i was soooo excited. but then i ended up getting downgraded because they didn't like my shoes. can you believe that?? right before taking off, the flight attendant booted me to economy because she didn't like my brown pumas. damn. so i was so bummed and bored and ALONE for 3 and a half hours while my mom and sister sat in business first chatting with steak and lobster, sipping brandy and listening to sinatra. ugh. i did however pulled my jedi samurai skills with the flight crew in japan and they let me sit first class all the way to hawaii. god damn you half japanese girls, do it to me everytime. (works all the time )

got to see my grandpa yesterday for the first time in 2 years...i love that guy. *sigh* i'm seeing my dad and my 2 sisters today. my sister's b-day is today and there's a party for her at chucky cheese. haha. that'll be cool...hopefully.

goodbye neverland.

i wonder how the guys did...headstrong, i'll take on anyone...

i wasn't too excited about leaving for christmas. i don't really like to spend new years away from home either. but seeing that i'm leaving tomorrow afternoon, the anticipation of cold weather and pre-built snowmen are starting to really settle in. i heard that my uncle in south carolina has an actual fireplace in the house and i can just imagine myself sitting on the bearskin rug sipping a glass of st. francis merlot watching the fire eat up the wood as the hours slowly pass by....i don't think so. i'm super stoked about the fireplace--what else besides plastic can i burn in the house?

i heard they have a chihuahua.

so yeah, i'll only be gone for 2 weeks and for some reason, i forgot how to pack. i don't wanna over pack being that i'll be coming back with new stuff and i don't wanna underpack either. idk. maseha.

i'm not sure about this new york thing. we were supposed to spend a couple of days there, but it's starting to sound like were not. my mom always does this. she gets us all excited about everything and then doesn't follow through. i've learned not to take anything to heart. i just feel sorry for my siblings sometimes. i know once i get on the plane i'll start to feel better and more excited.

this blog is gay. goodbye.