has given me access to the code.

I've spent too much of my life going with the easier route even though I know (deep down and hidden inside) I could do more.. and better. I stick to my comfort zone because I know I can handle it and the pressure isn't so bad.

I'm trying really freaking hard to break the fuck out of that.

That's why I'm taking on this thing with this site and all. It's scaring me, because I fear failure is in my cards, but I can't back down. I need to push myself harder and not give up. I need to jump in and do what's necessary to make things happen.

That's why I continue to tell you all what I'm doing. If I say it, there's more reason for me to do it. People are counting on me now. I've promised to do something to help Guam's talented show the world what they can do. I want to do this. My passion is helping others even if they can do things on their own.

No room for failure. No room at all.

It's been a long week. We had some family guests over for an entire week. Two adults plus two kids. Added to us two adults and our two kids. It was loud and insane, but it was also nice.

The girls had kids to play with. I had someone to talk to until it was way past my bedtime. Niki and Amsister got a last-minute unexpected bday bbq. Dave and I actually got to go out somewhere without having to take the girls along. Of course, we asked Ams to come along since Napun Tasi was playing. It was her birthday, after all. It was fun.

Amsister and I worked on the shot glasses, which we need to do more of. Maybe tomorrow. We also discussed other merch, along with Tazzeh. Hopefully soon our items will be ready to go and we can put them up on the shop.

There's so much I want to do, but I have to remember that I must start small or else I'll fail. I don't want to fail. Hopefully no one gets impatient with me, because I've got all the impatience I need from myself! Hehe..

Anyway, until my oldest is back in school, things will be moving along slowly unless somehow I get more help and funds. Dave is working almost 'round the clock just to support our family and fund my projects for this site. So, I hesitate to ask him for help even though he's the one that can do most of the things that need to be done.

Be patient with me, please?! kthx.

misunderstood.

My mama made the news because she's totally awesome. I'm so proud that I have to share it with the world.

She's so awesome!

I want to be just like her.