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Finally talked to my bf about shit thats been bugging me and things that are pushing me away.

And he's actually trying to improve things.

But idk for some reason I keep waiting for the punchline. Keep waiting for the "too good to be true" kinda thing. Well I'm always waiting for it.

Everything in my life has been "too good to be true" so why should this be any diffy.

Worse part is now that he's trying... I'm still pushing him away. So scared he's gonna go back to his ex wifey. And wouldnt hold it against him as they have an awesome kid together.

He says that'll never happen, but I know soooo many ppl who've said that and my past experiences were guys dont mean shit they say.

Easily forgotten when they find something new. Or something old that excites them again.

He says he loves me but how many other guys have said that before him and left me bruised and broken. How many times have I gone willingly into their deceit knowing that its bullshit but hoping??

Too many fucking times... so what makes him so different? What makes his love for me lasting when the others weren't?


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Sometimes you need to have faith in the relationship. And you have to fight for what you want. Know that there are others out there that have felt the same as you, but are now in the best relationships of their lives.

And it's hard to want to keep trying when all you feel is heartbreak with each passing ex, but sometimes we need the pain to truly know what love is when we finally find it. Don't give up.

You should also remember that guys are different from girls not just physically, but emotionally. We expect more while they expect less.

Ok. I'm going to stop now because I sound all preachy. We should chat some time.




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SHe's right...we've been through that too.

Another thing to think about is that the past pain and heartache you've experienced were not his fault. He isn't the one who fucked you over so you shouldn't hold him responsible so to speak. Don't feel that the floor is going to drop out from under you and/or treat him like he's got to prove something to you because at some point you're going to really push him away and you could be missing out on the truest love.

Everyone has walls they put up and I'm a big advocate of changing that wall to a chan link fence so that you can see and experience everything the relationship has to offer but still have a small amount of protection.

Baby steps doll...baby steps.

Sometimes love comes when you least expect it or are prepared for it and the less you fight it the happier you will be.




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